thoughts

2019 REFLECTION

Hello, my dear readers!

Can you all believe 2019 is coming to a close? It seems like every other month I would write something along the lines of: “How are we already in March? How is it already July? And now 2019 is over?” Well, that’s how time flies, I suppose!

In the spirit of last year’s 2018 Reflection, I decided to follow up with a 2019 Reflection as well. As always, I want to hear about your reflections, so do not be afraid to comment or share your own post with me so I can see what you’ve been up to this year. 🙂

2019 has been a year, that’s for sure, and it’s probably been very different for all of us. For some of you, it has been a year of definition, and you’re seeing more clearly as a result. But I bet for others it’s been a tough one, and you’re hoping 2020 will pave the way for a happier season in your life.

I’m in the middle on this one. 2019 was a year of definition, in the sense that I graduated college, furthered my aviation pursuits, and left California behind. But it was also a year in which I found myself doubting things and questioning why I didn’t do things a certain way.

The good thing for us all is that we have a fresh start to a new year coming up very soon. We can create new resolutions, live our lives more deeply, and accept the mysteries of time. But before we come up with any resolutions for 2019, let’s do a little reflecting…

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Beautiful Hawaii (July 2019)

1. Sometimes we do not know why things happen.

Who goes to college to become a better writer, only to end up majoring in Spanish and then finding out she wants to be a pilot her junior year? Well… Eep. Guilty as charged! This truly relates to the fact that sometimes we do not know why things happen the way they do, but we must learn to accept it and move on. Other times we sit and think, “Why hasn’t such and such thing happened yet? Why are things going the way I want them to?” Well, again, it’s time to accept and move on.

I love symbolism and finding out the hidden meaning in things, but 2019 has taught me that it takes time to fully discover anything. And to the unknown moments… Well, there is beauty in those moments as well, even when we want to know more than we do.


2. Fly your own heading.

Okay, I couldn’t not have an aviation-related topic, right? 🙂

This past year has been the most rewarding year in terms of following a journey that should have been begun years ago (which relates to #1). In April I earned my private pilot license. In August I earned my instrument rating. In October I became a ground instructor, and a week ago my dad and I became commercial drone pilots. (Okay, these may seem cool, but some of them are really easy to get, so I promise you can do it too! More on this to come in future posts, I promise.)

In the next month or so I will complete my commercial pilot certification, which will allow me to (finally) get paid for flying instead of paying to fly. Shortly after this I plan to become a CFI (certified flight instructor), which I am really excited to do! There is so much learning in teaching, and I will be very humbled to be able to train young pilots who want to pursue this route.

As for the past few months, I have flown constantly while maintaining a rigorous course load. Somehow I was able to overpower my initial time goal (in regards to flight hours) and found myself enamored with a certain airport in Paso Robles, California. (It became a running joke that I was always flying from Camarillo, CA, to Paso Robles.) When I wasn’t flying to Paso, I visited other haunts such as Monterey and almost-Sacramento in the north; San Diego to the south; and Sedona, Arizona, to the east. (I promise I will write on this soon!)


3. Cut out what distracts you.

For a while my friend and I were doing great with our limited technology mission. What I mean by this is that we both agreed we were spending too much time on our phones and made it our goal to stay off them. During this period I felt rejuvenated at all the things around me. Suddenly I had so much more time to do things away from the screen.

Unfortunately, I’ve gotten pretty bad at being on my phone again. So while this goal of 2019 really did help me for a while, I’ve been off-kilter with it recently. Therefore, I hope that in 2020 I will continue this mission and stay off my phone more.

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Blurry Los Angeles

4. Listen to your intuition.

Sometimes you have to listen to those unsubtle cues in your brain that are telling you to do something. I hope this doesn’t sound too pseudoscientific, but there is power in the mystery that hangs around us every day, and your intuition can be a powerful tool to help you in certain situations. To be honest, this point has guided me for the past few years now, not just in 2019. However, I still like to reflect on how intuition can certainly shape decisions and outcomes as well.


5. Personality types…

This may be the corniest thing on the list, but it’s something I want to reflect on. When I was in high school, I took the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator test. For those of you who aren’t goofballs like me, the MBTI is a personality test that splits you into four major facets: Extraversion/Introversion; Sensing/Intuition; Thinking/Feeling; and Judging/Perceiving.

For years I was an INFP according to this personality test, which means I considered myself a hippie-type who only thought about peace, happiness, and listening to others’ problems (love doctor, anyone?). While this is an extreme stereotype of this personality type, I really did think myself an INFP.

So when I took the test two months ago, I was shook (as the youth say these days) to discover I am actually an INFJ. More on this to come, but I am still reflecting on this personality change.

*Is it actually a personality change, though?* MYSTERY!

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A dork unleashed in the middle of the West (April 2019)

6. Care for others.

This should be an unspoken for us all, but due to our selfish nature we do not realize how important this should be in our lives. Consider Christmas, if you will. Does it feel better when you open a present, or does it feel better when your loved one opens the gift you intentionally made/bought for him/her? When you see his/her eyes light up and a smile flash? Hopefully it is the second option.

2019 has reminded me to care for others. This should be an every year reflection moment for us all… Because this world isn’t just about you. It’s about everyone you know,  and everyone you don’t.


YOUR REFLECTION.

So, my dear readers, now it’s your turn to reflect. What was the best part of your year? What was the worst? What do you want to change for next year? You have a few days to make resolutions, but just know that making a list of resolutions won’t change anything. Instead, your heart has to be in the right place. ❤

Thank you guys so much for joining me on this journey, and I'm excited to hear what you have to share!

Until next time,

-Katie Kay. ❤

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thoughts

THINKING AHEAD

Hello, my dear readers!

I hope you all are doing well on this beautiful Friday. Here in California we are experiencing the wrath of the mighty Santa Ana winds, so please keep this state in your prayers as we brace for more wildfire threats.

For today’s post I thought it would be interesting to do a “Thoughts” post in which I ramble a little bit. It’s been a while since I’ve shared my thoughts with you all, so I hope you don’t mind if we stray away from poetry.

Before we start with the thoughts, I want to alert you as to some posts you can expect to see in the coming weeks. Sometime soon I will release my short story “Shadow” here on Katie Kay! It is a psychological thriller that I wrote for creative writing class, and I’m pretty excited about it. Additionally, I want to do a November challenge for Thanksgiving. For those of you are unfamiliar with Thanksgiving, just know it is a time for Americans to congregate and eat a bunch of turkey. Okay, really Thanksgiving is a time for family and appreciation. Therefore, I am thinking about what I want to do to spread my appreciation in the month of November via this blog.

All right, so let’s head into the topic for today… 🙂

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In the middle of California, I think (August 2019)

1. THINGS FALL INTO PLACE — SOMETIMES

Why does it seem like some things are meant to be, and others make no sense at all? Well, that’s the mystery of life. And it hurts when things don’t go according to plan, but then that makes the fulfillment of our goals even sweeter.

As my college years come to a close, I’ve found that certain things have most definitely fallen into place, and for that I am very thankful. But when it comes to other things, well… I just scratch my head and wonder: What in the world?

Accepting the reality that things (may) fall into place is important, but it’s not earth-shattering. Instead we must remember that we are in charge of our destinies, which leads me to my next point…


2. HARD WORK PAYS OFF

Man didn’t get to the moon overnight, so why do we think we will blink an eye and things will magically fall into place? (See what I did there?)

I am a believer in hard work. One specific example of this relates to a friend back home. After graduating college in three years, she returned home and spent a month straight studying for the MCAT, the very difficult exam to enter medical school here in the States. She spent eight hours a day dissecting study books while hunting for her first post-college job. (Yes, eight hours. A day. Hug a doctor if you see one.)

The day before the test, she received a phone call asking her to come into a health clinic for a job interview. Not only did she ace the interview in the midst of her final MCAT prep, but she aced the test the next day. And right after the test, she received another phone call. This time: A full-time job offer.

See? Things fell into place, but because of hard work. And the truth is that my friend has always remained humble about her success.


3. WE ARE LIVING STORIES

While we have established the connection between #1 and #2, another random thought that has popped into my mind for this post is the fact that each of us has an incredible story we are living every single day. And there is power in the fact that not one story is the same.

While it is almost sad to consider that we have a beginning, climax, and ending, I find comfort in the fact that we are blessed with time on this planet. Therefore, we should be humbled and respect our time here so that we can live life to the fullest. It may sound cliche, but it’s true: We are living stories, and if we want to write a good one, we have to pursue our passions, live with honesty, and remember to honor those who came before us.


4. HEART & HOME

When I was eighteen-years-old, the only thing I wanted to do was move away from my Southern town. While it made me nervous to move two thousand miles away, I didn’t really mind the idea of hitting the road and getting gone.

Plot twist: It didn’t take long for that same girl to realize, Shoot, I have no idea what I’m doing or why I came out here.

It also didn’t take long for me to realize where my true heart and my true home reside. Not all of you are like this, but I pray that you find your home one day and respect your surroundings. What I really mean is that home isn’t a place; it’s people. 


THANK YOU!

Thank you for reading this post. I hope my rambles have had a positive effect, and you can take a moment for yourself today to reflect on life’s mysteries. Sometimes we underestimate the power of prayer, a few seconds to ourselves, and a chance to breathe.

Take that moment for yourself today. You won’t regret it!

Until next time,

-Katie Kay

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poetry

FADE (a poem)

like dusk and echo fade away,
i know my time will come one day

to float away from this dear life,
and make my way from human strife:

to a land where sin is no more,
and peace crushes every single war.

yes: for until then i will wait
for the day when love conquers hate.


DAY 6 OF THE SEPTEMBER POETRY SERIES.

Well, this poem was not what I was expecting. The past few days have been produced very melancholy subject matter, and this one is not an exception to the rule. While I have not felt overly emotional lately, I do believe that this poetry series is churning out some deep-rooted thoughts in me, and I’m glad this outlet exists to share what’s on my mind.

We’re not guaranteed a set amount of days on this planet, and that’s why I believe it is so important to live our lives with optimism, bravery, and a taste for adventure. While I think I’ve got decades left on this planet, I really don’t know what I’ve got. And though this poem’s tone is almost nonchalant about the future, I’m not really in agreement with the final lines: but until that day i will wait

Huh? A poet doesn’t agree with her poem?

Not really. While I normally do wait around for things to happen my way, I don’t think we should live our lives like this. So maybe someone would be more apt to wait for happiness, but I believe we have the choice to transform our issues into positive energy. Without getting into controversial subject matter, I just want to say that I hope everyone lives a life devoted to loving others. And sometimes this love has a funny way of showing itself, that’s for sure.


THANK YOU!

Okay, I’m definitely a scattered brain right now. Hopefully tomorrow’s poem will be a little clearer. I really am ready to move onto happier material, so let’s hope tomorrow will be more upbeat. Only time will tell, I suppose!

Until tomorrow,

-Katie Kay.

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